Brightness

Ok so this is going to be a vent blog. I just need to let it out somehow so I'm choosing to it on a blog that many don't read. :) This week has been a week from HELL!!!!!!!!!! I don't know if it's the full moon (Saturday) or what but I CANT WAIT for this week to be over!!! First I haven't gotten much sleep since Sunday because my son hasn't been sleeping well, or my husband is snoring freakin' king size logs. So I'm a bit emotional because of that. But my son hasn't been sleeping hardly at all. He went from taking 2 naps regularly to me adjusting him to 1 nap a day and last week he would sleep for 3 hours during his one nap. This week it's been at max an hour and a half nap. Then he's a cranky butt and a nightmare to be around. Today he threw the BIGGEST fit he's thrown ever. Hitting me, practically laying on the floor throwing his fit. Now I know he's almost 2, he's going to be testing his boundaries, blah blah blah. It is NOT ok...

Ok so most of you who know me know that I am obssessed with coupons and finding good deals for my family. I'm still learning, "the game" but I think I am progressing nicely. It's all about finding the good deals then the coupons that go with it, then making your dinners around those. Which is proving very hard. If any of you have advice, good healthy recipes, or just tricks let me know. I am out to save my family the most amount of money possible. It's the one thing (besides raise our son) that I feel I can contribute. Anyway, there is a new contest going on with my friends blog: iheartcoupons.blogspot.com that cellfire (a place where you can add extra coupons to your Dillons card) is giving away $100 grocery gift card and one of the things you have to do is blog about so guess what? I'm blogging about it. :) I'm also adding her button to my page. Seriously though if you are in the Springfield area you should check out her page. I have known this sweet lad...

So I love youtube . I can't help it. I go on and see all these old school videos and new videos and they intrigue me, except when they aren't by the artists themselves, then they frustrated me with their cheesiness. Except for one. Our church was bringing Mark Shultz along with Point of Grace for a concert and I wanted to know what Mark Shultz had done, realizing that I probably HAD sung his songs at one time but couldn't place them. So I typed in his name and up popped "He's my Son" with a video from "The Passion". Well first let me say, I LOVE this song, and I DID know it. :) But I have never seen "The Passion" and really I don't care to see it. Why? It's SO violent. I know it would probably make me see things in another light but I HATE violence it gives me nightmares so I opt not to see it. But I clicked on the video and was shocked by what I saw. Not the violence so much, but from the perspective of Mary, Jesus' mother. ...

So lately a lot of my friends have been talking about seasons in our lives. I enjoy talking about this because it reminds me to take each moment because it is fleeting. I LOVE seasons. I love the way the air smells in the fall, like crisp leaves. I love the way the winter smells and looks. Everything so fresh and clean. I also love the way that spring smells, feels and represents. I love it when the air starts to get warmer, the rain makes everything green and bloom. Really I'm not a huge fan of summer, too hot, but I enjoy the way the heat feels on my skin while I'm in the pool. :) Seasons represent so much change, for better and for worse. I am learning that in my own life right now. Maddux is a growing, healthy, active 19 month old and I enjoy him walking and running. I love that he is more independant and is becoming more verbal. What I don't enjoy is the defiance and the strong willed nature my sweet little innocent boy presents at times. While we are at home I handle ...

So I'm sitting here in my warm, dry, and for the moment quiet living room on the 13th of January and I am beyond blessed. How often I take this house, my car, my son, my husband, my clothes, my shower, my water, my food, my everything for granted. As news from Haiti starts to come in I feel a loss that has nothing to do with the tragedies not that far from home. I feel a loss for that which should break my heart on a daily basis and doesn't. Let me explain. My heart physically hurts as I hear stories and see pictures of the destruction in Haiti, but more for the suffering people are going through. Those who has lost children, parents, friends, family members. And I feel compelled to do something, ANYTHING, to help. To ease their suffering. As I watch on CNN (because everyone else has moved on) the images of broken families, homes, and lives I am torn into small pieces at the pain people are going through as I sit in my warm, dry and for the moment quiet living room. But shouldn...

This week has been a bit ruff for many of my friends from high school, including myself. One of my sister's classmates was killed in a car accident on Saturday, she was 29 years old. We know we aren't amune to death it always hits us like a punch in the gut, especially this close to Christmas. But I appreciate death for this reason, it reminds me to not let one day go by without telling those I love that I love them and appreciate them. It also reminds me that I don't hold the reigns to my life, my creator does. So it's been a tuff week with trying to get a handle on emotions and trying to remind myself that for now my family is ok and together and I just keep praying that NEVER ends!! :) Maddux is almost 16 months now and that seems crazy to me. He is a ball of energy. He is not walking yet, can walk with our fingers but chooses not to do it by himself. :) He is sure stubborn, just like his parents. :) Great. :) He loves to play, read books and find out what and how th...

So it's official, I HAVE A BOY. :) Now I have always known, of course, that I had produced a boy (with some help from Andy of course) but until this past month I hadn't realized how much of a boy I had. My boy has always displayed certain boy traits, such as a boob fetish. He wasn't breastfed and yet he loves to poke and giggle at my boobs should he ever see them accidently. But recently my boy has began to cruise. And while cruising he has decided, hmmm..... I LOVE to climb. And so he does. ON EVERYTHING. Last week Andy was letting him crawl in our kitchen and by the window and Maddux decided that he would pull up on our child sized picnic table. As parents we whoops and hollar and give abundant praise, until he decides that pulling up isn't all that great. He wants ON TOP of the picnic table. So he proceeds to pull with all his might and climbs, his first time trying, to the top of the picnic table. My husband cheers with support while I begin to feel whoozy and real...